Zane-the-Foxwolf

Yeah. That super emo journal I posted a few days ago? Forget ever reading it. In fact, I can't even believe I said some of the things I said. I want to apologize for being such a loser. You can do something without it being a natural born talent. Fuck what you heard and anybody who says differently. I was wrong. So very wrong. I'm not going to let what anybody says get me to the point of thinking like that again. So my dad thinks that I'm not good enough? Fine. I don't have to prove myself to anybody. I may not be exactly where I'm happy yet, but at least I know I'm not bad either. That's all that matters. Besides, artists are never really "s

With the way things are going for me now, I'm really under pressure to hurry up and do something fast. I've been thinking about joining the Air Force, but I constantly keep thinking about how can I continue on doing what I've dreamed of doing if I go there. Upon going over this with my dad, he told me "You're never going to find a job in what you're doing now. Not even as an assistant to some people. You're just not good enough." Wow. I guess he's finally telling me how he really feels about me and what I do. With all the times I could have done something to improve my skill, I'd always let other things get in the way and end up pushing that

Yep. Today, I've gotten one year closer to death. yay! 8D